I thought that when I completed the Lenten fast I would be starving for meat. There was a time somewhere around the 5th week where it was heavy on my mind. I had some precise visions of a good steak and a some lamb tips with a cucumber yogurt sauce. The thoughts were so strong, I could taste it in my mind. But, the thoughts and visions were momentary and I did not give in to the temptations.
For Easter yesterday I had Red Snapper and salad and I was very satisfied with it. I ate a small piece of beef but I was not called to have any more though it was available. I suppose I will consume the flesh of a land animal when I am ready. There are a few things I have learned in this fast that I would like to share:
- Though I am proud to have done what I set out to do, I know that it is nothing compared to a sacrifice that is forced upon us. If for some reason beyond my control, the sustenance needed for survival was inaccessible the mental/physical/spiritual strength it would take to get through that is so much more than what it takes to choose to abstain from one thing.
- Your perspective is everything. If you approach a challenge, obstacle or goal with a defeated attitude, you will be defeated. If you have no faith in the power, the divinity, or the wisdom of yourself, the difficulty of your journey will be exponentially higher. I know it sounds cliche-ish but I do not see my cup as half empty or half full, what I have cannot be contained in a cup. When I lose sight of this point, I become unhappy. When I am in tune with this point, I am happy.
- Over-eating is over-eating. Without meat in your diet, you can still eat too much. No matter what you are consuming you must control your portions. Only you know what you are able to digest. Choose wisely.
- NO ONE can absolve you from your sins. YOU have to come to terms with the life YOU live.
- Clearly, Jesus is a significant figure in our history (I mean here we are 2000 years later, still talking about him) but I do not believe he was the son of God in the sense that it is taught. The Bible but it’s still a book written by men (and only men, which is out of balance). Not to mention that even for a reader like me, it’s like the hardest read ever. It might as well be in Latin when they start in on that the son of the son of the son, 15 times removed…really? I have struggled with these ideas for a long time but I am sure now that this is not my path/connection to higher divinity. I still respect others for their right to believe and practice what they wish and I expect respect for my rights as well.
Back to the food, now more than ever I want my meals to count. I want them to be good and nutritious. I want them to be worth the energy it takes for my body to process. I want consumption harmony, actually that’s not just with food, that applies to everything.